Yeahs, such a bad move .
A move I can't take back now no matter what .
Its just another day of horridness in this life of mine .
I'm sorry to you for for that I've caused .
I don't know if I should cry or laugh .
But I know I should just waste my tears anymore .
Its just not worth it .
I rather save it for someone else .

Finally someone knocked some senses into me .
Why am I thinking so negatively ?
Why is it that I'm just not strong enough to face this all ?
Why am I like that now ?
I know I was much better then .
But I just need time .
Time to just make things right and console myself .
I'm just at the lowest point in my life ..

I should challenge myself to work harder .
I'm just influenced too easily .
Way too easily .
I'm going to restrict myself already .
I just lack that self control .
As a leader, that is very important ..

Miiya , just move on in life and leave these behind .
Afterall they are just some horrid memories .